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[29 Oct 2003|10:06pm] |
My life is SO stressful right now. I have a Macbeth essay to right, due Monday. I have a shitload of chemistry that I don't really even understand. Like 10 pages of Math, PLUS History. And then French. THEN my uncle decides to overdose on OC and burn his hand practically off. So I had to be with my siblings all day long. They are SO annoying. What else?? As you all know, I spend too much time online. Yes, way too much time online, just getting myself into all sorts of trouble..lol
I guess that about covers my life for the moment
*saRa
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[23 Oct 2003|07:41pm] |
Rachel called. We laughed. She told her friend that I thought he was hot (which he was, but it was just a picture of him that i saw) She tells him that she'll get a picture of me to show him. Uhh no, thats alright..lol. Then Jordan gets on the phone "Hi, Sara.. I love you" "I love you too" "Oh, did you hear that.. she loves me!!" Hah. He's fun to humor.
I'm reading this book called "Four Blondes". I like it. It's by the same woman who wrote "Sex and the City" I forget her name. But you all don't care what I'm reading.
I'll write later..
*saRa
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so I was thinking last night about getting marrried. This strikes me as funny, since I don't even have a boyfriend.. . See, I was thinking about how weddings are SO overrated. It's all about the cake, and the flowers, and the church, and the priest, and the guests. Who cares about all that crap? I used too. Or, I thought I did. But isn't supposed to be about just the two of you? Not your mom and dad, aunts and uncles.. right? I just think a wedding would be more special if it was just the two of you. So, out of that paragraph about my views on getting married, you should now know that I want to have a private wedding in Tahiti. (I know I didn't say Tahiti before.. I just threw that in there)
So thats all I wanted to say,
*saRa
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[21 Oct 2003|11:07pm] |
guess what?
I figured it out.
I know why I'm so addicted to the internet, and AIM.
I get lost on here. I play music, and I totally forget where I am. It's like a drug without the side effects. It's like when you're having the worst day, and you just come online and forget about everything. With me, I get offline, and go to bed. It'just nice.
Another topic:
People ignore me. I've been noticing it. I'll be talking and they just totally turn around and talk to someone else. It bugs the HELL out of me. It's frustrating that people don't care what I have to say. Well, not all people. And thats why I talk to him as much as I can because I know they actually care what I have to say. So thanks for that.
I spent the weekend with Rachel. We had fun pretending to be enraged housewives.. it was lovely..haha. And we had fun at Sunday School.. can you imagine?? She's fun though, I like that girl. All the things we've argued about in the past, stupid things that meant nothing, don't even exist anymore. It's really great.
I think I'm done.
I love everyone that loves me, and most people that don't.
*saRa
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[12 Oct 2003|02:51pm] |
So, I'm thinking about getting into those rating communities on here like the_karens, or amihotornot. Haha, I guess thats pretty stupid.. but they seem cool, and I think it would be fun to rate people. So we'll see.
Today I spent like 4 hours doing all my homework thats due monday. I'm smart like that..haha
Not much else to say. see ya!
saRa
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[06 Oct 2003|05:55pm] |
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today was ok. it was going really good actually. i was feeling good and all. my mom came to school today for lunch, and even that was ok because most of my friends like her, i think. and then she decides to ask this guy out for me, which was totally not good. she meant well, i guess. But shes just really nuts.. and then the way that she said it, she was like "we're going to the movies do you wanna come?".. like WE are all going to go, and have fun. Uh no. that will not be happening. so i was totally embarrassed, and i told her so when we got in the car. i just could not believe she said that. And my friend talked to the guy later that day, and from the sounds of it, he didn't know what to make of it...I dunno... I was just very humiliated today thanks to my mother, and thought that you should all wallow in my misery with me :)
saRa
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| blondes and coke |
[04 Oct 2003|11:05pm] |
so what pisses me off? When people say that blondes are dumb, because that is TOTALLY not the case. i have this friend who ALWAYS has to open her mouth (to say stupid things that make no sense of course) and she'll say "oh blondes are dumb!" "Brunettes are better" bahaha no they most certainly are not. (no offense to all brunettes :)) just her, she is SO boring, she does NOT know how to have fun at all, and it just bothers me. So if you think blondes DO have more fun.. feel free to comment...lol
Coke is WAY better than Pepsi. The only thing i like about pepsi was the commercials with Britney.. don't say you didnt like them. I know you did.
What else can i tell you... i think i'm all out of cool things to say. anything i say after this would be mindless babble.. so i'm gonna go
see ya
saRa
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[01 Oct 2003|09:20pm] |
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so i've realized some things...i've firstly realized that you don't know what you have until it's gone, which is a bit of a cliche, but i have seen that and thankfully, i didn't have to learn the lesson, someone else did. But I've already dealt with how I feel about that and all, and i'm moving on to what i've realized about myself as a person.
It's SO hard for me to trust people. It's like I build up these super high walls with people. People that i actually care about. and its just really hard for me to let go, and be my total self with people. with most people. i actually do know one person that i do totally and completely trust. I know that whatever i tell her will stay between me and her, and no one else. there are some other people that i've come really close to totally trusting, but it just so happens that i really like him, and i guess i just feel like i'm still trying to impress him or something. i can't impress people with just me, there is nothing impressive about me.
Then I find myself thinking that everyone else is out to get me, or use me for something. Its SO not healthy to be like that. just about everything someone says to me, i'll be like "well what the hell does that mean? it has to mean something bad"
most of the time i don't say anything about it, except with people i'm close too, then i'll ask them: what the hell is that supposed to mean? today for example i was telling my friend about how my computer was taking me to these porn sites, and then we started talking about how those girls are fake trash, and yadda yadda. so we had like an entire conversation about this subject, and i had said that i couldn't believe we had a convo about that.. and he says 'well we were bound to talk about it sooner or later'. now, don't ask me why, but i thought that actually meant something else. i don't know what, but it really bothered me.. so i asked him what he meant.. and he really didn't mean anything at all by it. i'm just crazy. thats all. just a big crazy loon.
then i learned the differance between "love ya" and "i love you ____" it just means SO much more. I love you comes from the heart.. love ya comes from a "lower place" as my friend Don likes to say. kind of like when people say "oh you're hot" and you just disregard them as perverted slimeballs who just need to get some. But when someone says "oh, you're really pretty" thats differant. it makes you stop, and turn around, and say "thank you for not making me an object" so hot=sex, pretty=love. i love you=love, love ya=sex(not all the time.. but it's more casual then meaningful)
so that is mostly all i learned about me today.. or all that i can put in a public entry anyways
*sara
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[26 Sep 2003|10:17pm] |
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What does your name mean? princess
How old are you? 15
How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?)? 10..lol
Describe yourself in 5 words. nice.optimstic.hypocratic.procastinistic(sp?).smart
What are your worst qualities well i procrastinate, i can be a bitch, i'm also a bit of a whiner
What are your best qualities: i actually genuinely care about people... sometimes even ppl i don't know. i'm a fast learner, i believe in myself, and others.
How long does it take you get get ready in the morning 30 minutes
~SLEEP~
Do you dream at night? yes
Do you remember your dreams? most of the time
Describe one. i remember dreaming when i was really little that my mom was a ghost
What time do you go to bed usually? around 12
What time do you wake up normally? around 8
What time do you wake on weekends? around 10
Do youfind waking late nice or annoying? sometimes nice, sometimes annoying
do you sleep with one pillow or two? two
~SCHOOL~
Do you like school? yeah
Why/why not? i like the social part of school
Whats ur fave subject? hehe.. music
Most hated subject? MATH
Do you have a fave teacher? angela
Ever had a crush ona teacher? nope
Are you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? english/drama
~FRIENDS~
Do you have heaps of friends? not really
Do you have a best friend? nope.. alot of close ones
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? more girls
Do you ever get annoyed at any friend? yeah
Have you ever lied to a friend? only to protect them
Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? nope
~FAMILY~
Do you like your parents? sometimes
Ever run away from home? thought about it..
Ever thought about it? lol
Do you have any siblings? yes
If so, do you like or get annoyed with them? they are very annoying. i like the baby
How old are they? 8,6,4,4,2
If not, do you mind being an only child? i wish
Do you feel your parents spoil you? nope
Do you not get along with any of your family? i get along with most
Do you have big family get togethers ever? yup. every holiday
~RELATIONSHIPS~
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
If so, are you in love with them? n/a
Do they love you? n/a
How long have you been together? n/a
Most romantic thing theyve ever done for you? hmm..
Do you have a crush? yes
If so, are you in love? now i know he's gonna read this.. so i'm not saying
Do they know you like them? yeah
Is it serious or playful? i dunno, maybe in between
How long have you liked them? too long
Ever done something stupid to impress them? nope, not my style
Have you ever experienced unrequited love? i guess so
Do u find it romantic or hurtful? romantic
Even know what it is? yup. isn't it when you love someone all the time.. no matter what? Like you have never hated them for a second?
~Sex~
Ever had sex? no
believe that a person shouldnt have sex before marriage? if they plan on marrying
Believe in casual sex? no.. theirs no such thing
When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity? i'm not in control of that now am I?
Did you regret it? i wont
~Religion~
Do you have a religion? yes
Do you practice it i.e go to church? yes
Do you believe in God? yes
Jesus? yes
Satan? yeah
Heaven? yeah
Hell? yeah
If you died tomorrow what do you beleive will happen to you? i would hope i would go to heaven
Does death scare you? very much
~Morals~
Have you ever been drunk? nope
taken drugs? no
stolen? no
shoplifted? no
tried to commit suicide? no
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? when i was young
gotten into a fight? yeah
are you more innocent or guilty? guilty of everything..lol
Would you date a drug addict? no
have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? not look after, but be with
Are you racist? in some ways
Are you discriminatory to anyone? yes.. i don't mean to be though
Have you been a hypocrite in the past? yeah
Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? open
~Media~
Do you watch tons of tv? not tons.
How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? maybe once
Do you listne to the radio often? yeah
Do you read the newspaper? no
Do you read magazines? no
Are you a couch potato? no
Do you use the internet too much? way..
~Music~
Whats your fave style of music? rock/pop
Do you play an instrument? flute and piano
Do you sing? yup
Whats your fave band? at the second, i really like saves the day
Why? they're awesome! have you ever heard Held? thats like THE best song ever
Have you met them before? no..
Name 3 cds that youve bought in that last year. jewel,ataris,avril
Why did you buy them? i was curious,boys of summer was my song of the week,because i like complicated
~Sport~
Whats your fave sport? ice skating
Whats your fave sport to watch? ^^^
Do you have a fave team of any sort? nope
Do you play a lot of sport? no
ever won anything for sport? tropies for soccer
~perosnality~
Are you funny or serious? funny
Creative or not? creative
Logical thinker or lateral thinker? mix of both
Are you outgoing or shy? outgoing
Are you lazy or active? active
Have you ever been hyperactive? no..lol
Are you a naturally hyperactive person? nope
~Looks~
Are you happy with the way you look? sometimes
What would you change? i could stand to lose 5 punds
Do you wear makeup regularly? yes
Do you have a large wardrobe? no
~Money~
Do you have a job? kinda
Do you like it? yes
Are you a saver or a spender? spender
Do you work hard or slack off? i try my best
Have you ever been fired? no
In trouble at work? no
Made a major mistake? no
Ever had money stolen from you? no
Are you always broke? yeah
~embarassing moments~
Your all time most embarassing moment? wow.. too many
Ever snorted drink out your nose? no
Ever giggled like an idiot? yes..lol
Ever embarassed yourself and pretedned nothing happened? yup..
Ever tripped in front of someone you liked? yeah, i do that all the time
Ever said soemthing really stupid? i do that alot too
Ever snorted while laughing? once or twice
Ever fallen off a bed? yes.. three times
Ever sleepwalked? nope
~Memories~
Whats your best memory? i really have alot
Worst? my aunt leaving
Whats the wierdest memory you have? asking the mcdonalds people if they spit in there hamburgers
Do you have a good memory? yes
Whats the coolest holiday you remember having? christmas at my aunts on the water
~Thoughts~
Ever had funny thoughts and laughed and no one understood you? yes..lol
Whats the firs tthoght that comes to your head when you hear these names?
Melissa: Davis
Bob: Dillion
Vanessa: Carlton
Alyssa: Milano
Jess: hot guy on Gilmore Girls
Brian: Krause
Charlie: 's Angels
Olivia: NEwton JOhn
Drew: Barrymore
Lily: Finnerty
Anita: Baker
Whats the firs thtoughts that come to your head while hearing these words?
cheese orange
rubber trojan
clothes kelly ripa
big boobs
dress up
jacket jean
polyester pants
kite windy
washing hair
SURVEY 2
1.Whats the biggest misconception about you?
that i can't do anything but stand around and look pretty because i have blonde hair
2.Whats something you've learned about the world?
thats is cruel, and people are mean. you gotta hold on to what you have.
3.Can you trust people?
some very few select people
4.Name some people of the opposite sex you KNOW you can trust:
grayson and dustin
5.Whats your song and why?
hmm.. i don't really have one.
maybe hilary duffs (i know shut up) "why not"
i take chances.. i hate not knowing what could have been
6.Do you have a motto?
believe in yourself.always
ask for what you want.. otherwise, no one will know
7.Dont you hate it when you find out some vital info a year too late?
yes very much.. even a day too late
8.Don't you love it when its vacation time?
yes! i'm going to some island my next vacation.. who wants to come??
9.Name all the places you've lived:
just two
Bel Air,
Baltimore
10.Whats your wedding going to be like?
i still haven't decided if i want a traditional church wedding, or a small beachy wedding..
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[26 Sep 2003|12:04pm] |
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yeah, i got another new layout.. this ones a keeper. I really like it. For being free and all.. it doesn't look too bad.
live is alright at the second...
<3 Sara
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| new layout and such |
[12 Sep 2003|08:26pm] |
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so, i got a new layout. again. i'm not sure what i'm trying to accomplish making all these layouts. i have other things to do. like finish reading the merchant of venice. hah. nothing new happening. it's funny though, my kazaa is running ALOT faster. i got a xanga journal too. i hate xanga. it doesn't do what i want it too do. i think i'm gonna pay for livejournal. then i could have a really nice layout..lol. i was even thinking of doing music this time... but the file was too big, and i didn't feel like cutting it up. i'm gonna go.. see ya
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| hey hey |
[31 Aug 2003|01:11am] |
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just got in. I went to dinner,go carts, and bowling with my uncle vic, his gf, and her daughter. it was fun. her daughters nice. yeah, at the go carts the seatbelt guy just HAD to "fix" my seat belt, and feel my boobs in the process (don't ya just LOVE that??) ugh. i was like "hello" and he goes "oh sorry". yeah, i'm sure. the track was actually nice though.and besides the annoying assholes that work there... it was fun.
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[28 Aug 2003|06:22pm] |
alrighty, i haven't updated in awhile so i'll fill you in on the last few days. or at least the big event of the week. i went to sing at that ronald mcdonald house place. it went surprisingly well. i got to sing for a half an hour, and i would have to say that the best part was getting to talk to the kids. like this one little boy was 5, and he was almost dancing to the songs that i was singing. so he said his name was michael, and i told him i had a brother named michael. he asked me how old he was, i told him 3. he says "i'm older than him".. in the cutest way. he was just adorable. and then he wanted to give me a hug, and his mom says "he has chocolate ice cream on him, is that ok?" i just said of course and gave him a hug. and some people were like "oh, can u take a picture with my daughter??" so i did that too. it was wonderful.
i got a new music program. it's called Melody Composer. It is the dream program i've wanted forever. and I FINALLY found it. so that would be my life at the moment.
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[21 Aug 2003|11:07pm] |
hello,
today i babysat and then went to angela's. Her show is really stressing her out, so she needs all the help she can get. i met this producer guy at her house, his name was lawrence. he's like high up in the industry.. he was nice. then we went to rehearsal. i actually ended up copying all the parts and stuff.. and then mixing them up and causing a fiasco...lol. But it was all good. They did really well, except something was going wacky with the mics. so finally the guy put this cover over it, but then it sounded all staticy. Finally the electric guitar player Tim, came over and asked me how i thought the sound was.. i didn't have to say much because he heard it too. He's probably the nicest of her band members.. Carrie is nice too though she does backup. i think she has a website too.. www.sahffi.com shes more folk then rock, but shes good nonetheless. uhh what else do i tell you.. ohh uhh the sound guy dan is the meanest man in the world..haha. seriously he's SUCH a grouch about everything. he gave angela a hard time about the mics, and THEN he gave me a hard time because the office where the copier was, was locked. and he was all pissed that he would have to send someone with me. so he sent this one girl and she was like "THANK YOU, he has been getting on my nerves ALL DAY!" she was cool.... i think thats it.. cya
sara
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[20 Aug 2003|05:17am] |
hey,
it's 5am! and i'm awake.. blah. I hate being awake at 5am. It sucks.. But my dad is gonna drop me off at Angelas so i have to be up. i'm gonna go take a shower.. see ya
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[19 Aug 2003|09:18pm] |
oh my god, i had ALL these awesome shirts i wanted you all to see, and my FREAKIN PASSWORD WAS SPELLED WRONG!!!! give me a minute...((*&(*^*^%)(*%*^)_($(*%^@($&%#)*^_^#(^)
ok.. i'll just show ya a few now
<img src="http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-8/327092/1487.gif" width=123 height=151
god that is SO frustrating!! anyways..
SaRa
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[18 Aug 2003|11:16pm] |
hey hey...
i don't really have much to say tonight, but i wouldn't want to NOT write at all.. because i feel that i'd somehow be, ugh, betraying the computer.. yes i am weird. well, i went to work for like 3 hours today. i got another person to help me with my gig. or really angela asked the girl to come "see what it's like". She wants her to learn from me! HA. But she was like "sure, i'd love to come" I thought this was funny, because my OWN friends are bailing out on me, but a total stranger wants to come help me out.. actually now i have TWO total strangers helping me out, and ONE friend. I guess i just asked the wrong frieds.. Oh, look, i managed to rant, and i wasn't even trying TOO!! I'm good aren't I???
luv ya,
SaRa
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